The One Who Follows

She is always out there. 

The dark one, the one who follows you but always stays in the shadows.

 She lurks around ever silently; waiting for a chance to come out. She knows the day will come  that you need her again. The day you will split apart and no longer be whole. That's when she'll be able to emerge. 

You know she's there, you always have. You knew you would never be able to vanquish her forever. You know that you needed her at one point in time but you also know that leaving her was the right thing to do. She's dark. She's depraved and she'll do anything to get her vengeance. That's the part that scares you the most. What if, she ever took over again? You are no longer a child with a childs strength . What you now have is far greater and far more powerful than it ever would have been before. You know what she will want. You know her well. For you were the one that created her...... to do something that you just......wouldn't have survived if you had to do yourself. 

You know how she thinks. You know what she wants. What could she do if she came out to play? What would she consider just punishment for the crime? What would you have to live with afterwards? Would you be able to handle it or would it break you even more? You ask yourself this question every single day. That is why you have to control her, you have to keep her at bay, you have to make sure that she never again sees the light of day.